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Why oh why do girls have to be so damn complicated!?
I've recently found out that someone who I like likes me, but i happen to know she has a history of turning her back on a guy the second he starts showing interest in return... so what on earth is a boy to do?? hmmmmm.....
I'm just crossing my fingers that shit doesnt get fucked up.
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[12 Oct 2006|07:04pm] |
Ask me a question about each of the following:
1. Friends
2. Sex
3. Music
4. Drugs
5. Love
6. Livejournal
No matter how rude, sexual, or confidential. Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked.
No, really. I like talking about myself. Ask me.
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| Adventures of Tim the Barbarian |
[31 Mar 2006|02:36pm] |
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Last night I got high with Dan and Jonah for hte first time in over a week. Thats a long time for this semester. it was great fun.
We hung out in the fort in dan's room listening to music for a while. Then we went to Central Tech to meet up with Shawn, Hussain, and some of their friends. Shawn had Heneikin sitting on a pack of ice and he gave me one. It was so fucking cold!! cRazy considering we were outside. I loved it. We played frisby. it was alot of fun. I found a stick that was attached to a shoelace, like a fucking barbarian tool, and i proceeded to have alot of fun with it. There was a pylon there and i used it for target practice, running up swinging the stick around and hten hitting it as i ran by. It was awesome. I then tried it with a beer can... I kept missing and eventually the stick hit me in the head. HILLARIOUS! Everyone just kept laughing.... good times. It hurt quite a bit actually.
After playing frisby for a while, we toured down to the conveniece store on College street and ran into Matt, Brad, and Chazda (sp????)(also, chazda is the other guy who lives at the fort, right?? i think thats his name but i cant remember). We talked for a few minutes. When we left, dan had a revalation... that chazda was really napolean dynamite... we laughed a hell of alot...
At the convenience store we bought munchies and jonah and i bought cigars and i bought a lighter. Its hillarious though, cuz its purple iwth a picture of a fluffy kitty on it. HARDCORE!!! Im so manly when im stoned...
We came back and watched Samurai Jack. Awesome.
Good fucking night.
I AM A BARBARIAN!
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[09 Mar 2006|11:22pm] |
Okay, so everyone should download the song Choke by I Mother Earth because its awesome, and i do not kid!
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[06 Nov 2005|12:42am] |
Im waiting for whatever... just waiting... im so filled iwth anticipation right now for whatever it is that is building. its a really strange feeling...
My coffee table looks fuckin awesome thanks to 'High Artists: Mission Two!' last night. Yay!
Emilie, sorry i missed you by not going to the party... although im sure you didnt think twice about me not being there anyway.
Linzi, I just miss you.
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[11 Sep 2005|06:02pm] |
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hahaha! Looks like we stalk in turn!
Im not hung over today. My prediction was wrong.
I just bought another cd.. Big Wreck: The Pleasure and the Greed. God, im terrible at not spending money and buying cds...
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[11 Sep 2005|03:16am] |
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I am so drunk righ tnow. Im going to be so hungover tomorrow; impressive ibecause i dont usually get hungover.
Shit. Still havent got to the Fort since i hav ebeen back.
Everything is so awesome here. I have so many friends its unbeilievable. I love my life right now. Goddddddam.
Emilie wrote me a really sweet email tonight. it made me smile alot. God, i miss her.
Dave got a 3$ hotdog for 2$ tonight. Only a jew coud do that.
Man, Derek loves it here. This year is gonna be so great. im a absolutley looking forward to it. Shittttt.
Life isnt usually this good to me.
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[06 Sep 2005|08:26pm] |
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So, im feeling really good right now. Ive spent the last 24 hours with cassie pretty much. I have been home very little since i have moved in. And i am just aobut to go out again; im just putting more songs on my mp3 player and i will disappear! Im gonna go hang out at Watson, Millar, and Plumpton's house. Should be good times had. Tomorrow i get to hang out iwth Maija! Hellz yeah.
Bought some books today. Werent too horribly priced, except one was overpriced by alot so i will try to find it online. I should be able to find it for 30 bucks and the bookstore was charging 66. Gross.
Jon Cabattan made me tacos tonight. Fuck yeah.
I still dont like beign home. It is so big and lonely. that is why im glad i have lots of friends in town so i can no be here at all. I didnt sleep here last night and i wont tonight either. I havent even fully unpacked yet! I love this not caring thing. Dave moves in tomorrow! Then i will settle. I cant wait until my house is here because i really look forward to hanging out with them.
Playlist done!
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[25 Aug 2005|08:44pm] |
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Last week, Kate and i got together and wrote a song. I promised lyrics, so here they are. The verse segments are out of order still becuase it is unfinished. We are going to add one or two more verses to it; what we have right now is just one verse and the chorus. So its going to be at least twice as long, and i bet two out of hte four segments here will end up in the second verse with two new segments, and the same with the others.... So, as incomplete as it is, i thought i would post it because i really like it, and i cant wait to see where it goes. It is about endings.
Leaving You
I said I'm sorry man, but now im saying
Its out of my hands so I am praying
Tomorrow may still come but maybe
Today'd the last chance for you and me baby
Leaving you is my obsession
Because the ending leaves the best impression
Ive only got these words to give
I'd follow you, but i've got my life to live
It always has to go this way
In my heart i want you to stay
I know you've got to go away
the sunsets the most beautiful part of the day
You may like your life right now
Everything just clicks somehow
This may leave you feeling strange
but the leaves are most beautiful when they change
Im leaving you again
I know it feels so wrong
Im leaving you again
I wont see you for so long
Im leaving you again
I know it feels so wrong
But every broken heart is just another chance to fall in love
We are gonna put more verses together as the semester passes and we feel inspired by missing each other. haha. At christmas time we will put it all together, and hopefully something awesome will happen.
Sigh... I miss kate already, but i feel so good about what i still have that the pain is bearable.
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[24 Aug 2005|02:17am] |
Lemme know if you want me to add you to friends list, because im gonna start friends only...
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| Steely-face! |
[23 Aug 2005|01:55am] |
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I got my freakin eyebrow pierced and its freakin sweet! Katy did it...which is funny becuase like a long time ago someone (probalby emilie) told me that katy pierced either them or someone else, and iw as like 'thats so unsanitary blah blah blah!', but tonight, she brought her piercing stuff for show and tell (hahahaha) and i was like 'do'er up!', so i now have a barbell in my right eyebrow. Ive beent hinking about this for years, so its not like it was spur of hte moment... i jsut never thought i would actually do it. Next up, a tatoo! I just need to figure out what....
So thats my big news. I feel really awesome right now. Albeit quite tired, but i dunno... things just felt right tonight. I love it when life is like that. I dont second guess anything and i dont expect anything, i just go with the flow. I am just going to try and ride this feeling for the next two weeks and end my summer at home with awesomeness. tomorrow im supposed to hang out with Emilie and Gravelle, and it seems as though every other night this week will be spent hanging out with the good people i have here... I am going to cherrish it, because it is really awesome. Im going to miss it alot here when i go back, although im also excited to be back in the city and have that life back as well. Its so wierd when you basically have two different lives, but its so great when they are somewhat interconnected the way mine are... Im going to miss here, but im not going to forget about here, and im going to come home often enough. Plus all these bitches here better come and visit me in toronto!
Im just sort of rambling now... its kinda funny. Things are good, and i have a freakin piece of steel in my face!
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[19 Aug 2005|06:00pm] |
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I feel about worse right now than i have for a very long time. The past few days have been one disappointment after another. Eveyrone is leaving around me, and i always end up wishing i had spent more time with them or had a better goodbye or whatever. Now rockapalooza is moved... and im sorry, i care more about the party than the music.... And its suddenly looking like i wont get to see Linzi at all because of her wisdom teeth.... FUCK! Why do i look forward to things? Life loves to disappoint me, but it always leaves me feeling guilty becuse i always say 'oh, its not so bad... why am i bitching?' An d then i dont bitch and it builds up and eventually i get aggravated by the smallest things.... I am just so frustrated right now.... Im tired of compromising everything.... im tired of settling for what i can get instead of what i want. I swear, i havent gotten what i truly want for a very very long time.
I guess this is just one of those times when you want to run from your goddam life. I might do that. I might htink of someplace to go and disappear for the weekend, fucking rockapalooza and everything else that has disappointed me today.
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[19 Aug 2005|04:02am] |
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I said goodbye to Kate tonight. We hugged and i didnt want to let go, but finally i did, but then she held my face and played with my hair even though the hug lasted longer than expected. It makes me sad to think that she is yet again gone... but it makes me sadder tot hink that i am so used to it by now... The moments we spend together are like no other, but htey are so seldom that i just learn to live wtihout her. Its as if my life is some sort of compromise.
That being said, when she isnt around, i do live very well without her. I am happier in those moments i see her, most likley because they are infrequent enough for us to never get tired of each others company, and the anticipation of those moments makes them ten times better. But when she is not around, i am quite happy as well. Soemtimes little things can bring me down,but the big picture is really good right now. Event he little things are really good right now. I love just the tiniest little expressions from people... the smallest little things, like turning my computer on and finding an msn message from someone i consider a little extra special. Its a great feeling. And laughing at the dumbest things. And just thinking about the times i have had an dthe times i will have.... and the people in my life..... Life just gives me a general sense of love right now.
It is far too late. I must wake up in 3 hours for work. Why do i do this to myself!?
Kate and i wrote a song together tonight. I'll post the words sometime. Not now.
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[17 Aug 2005|06:27pm] |
Yowzah! I forgot the best part of all! 12$ 40 of Captain Morgans Rum at the Duty Free Shop! Thats the price of a freakin mickey! Hellz yeah!
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[17 Aug 2005|06:03pm] |
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I havent slept in a very very long time. It is so hard keeping my eyes open. But my freakin friends still wont let me sleep. I have to go to a band practice in an hour. Brilliant plan..... Drive for 10 hours, stay awake for about 40, then still have a band practice afterwards. I doubt i'll even be able to hold my bass, let alone play it.
Stopped in toronto on the way home. Got to see Maija... it aws so good seeing her. We just hung out and talked a bunch. We ate lunch; she was unimpressed by mark and plumpton.... i guess 'normal' people dont know how to handle them. I was too exhausted to really do anything exceptional. We ended up just laying on her bed and falling asleep for about an hour before mark and plumpton came back from a walk or some shit. Then we left. It gives me hope for this coming yoear in terms of friends though. I feel we will hang out alot and it will be always good, so i wont feel as unfufilled by the lack of Emilie.
Went to Sonic Boom and bought 6 used cds. When i buy cds, i cant freakin stop.
Ben Harper: Burn to Shine
Jimi Hendrix: Are You Experienced
Dave Matthews: Busted Stuff
Moist: Creature and Mercedes Five and Dime
OLP: Happiness is Not a Fish You CAn Catch
Im excited for these purchases.
Its likely the lack of sleep speaking, but im not feeling so hot right now. Something inside me is a little off.... as if i have been anticipating something and now im preparing myself for disappointment. I shouldnt think like that... yet i do.
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[16 Aug 2005|11:38pm] |
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Ive spent the majority of this day sleeping. Why? Because i have to drive my sister to the Buffalo Airport tonight, then she is offff to Texas for a year to be a devout Christian. Pfft, whatever floats her boat i guess... We will drive through the night, so my sleep will come in handy. Mark and Plumpton are coming along to keep me awake (and substitute driving... i honestly dont expect to even drive half the time; my sis will likley drive most of hte way there... Mark isnt touching the damn steering wheel!) Tomorrow we are stopping off in Toronto so ic an defer my tuition fees to osap and stuff, and im going to get to see Maija. YES!!! I miss that cat alot.
Today was mostly wierd. I obviously didnt sleep the whole time; i just lay in bed all pensive-like alot of the time,t hinking about so much random shit. I wish i had gotten to see Emilie for more than 15 minutes yesterday because now i dont konw if i will get to see her until Rockapalooza. I probalby will, but im so busy until then it wouldnt surprise me if i dont. I wish she was online mor today; i was by my comptuer almost all day, but most of hte time i wasnt talking to anyone. Linzi was on some, so that was good. I am really starting to look foward to hanging out with her on friday. Cah-razy.
This update was really unnecessary. But the Foo Fighters just came on my playlist and that makes me really happy. I have been wearing my sweater like all the time for the past three days... its so comfy. I want to be at that show again...
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| Picket Fence Cartel |
[15 Aug 2005|09:50pm] |
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I just bought the At The Drive-In Anthology. 18 Song CD + DVD. Its really bitchin and awesome. Fuckin eh.
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[14 Aug 2005|09:03pm] |
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POEM!
Red
Red is the colour of love.
Two still faces beneath
A starry sky.
Two hands held;
A handheld smile.
A red sunset and a
Heartfelt kiss.
Red is the colour of pain.
So many broken hearts
Arrowed by a silent cupid.
A toast to things left unsaid
And Unfulfilled promises.
Screams echoing through silent red nights
Like malicious daggers.
Red is the colour of complexity.
A tired dream of dashed hopes
And future uncertainty.
A plethora of confused thoughts
And unexplained actions.
A congregation of minds driven mad
By lonely red nights.
Red is the colour of love.
Two hearts growing stronger
Amidst a fond absence.
Blind eyes awaken to
A bright red dawn.
The fulfillment of all dreams
Of bright red nights.
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[14 Aug 2005|03:37am] |
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Foo Fighters - Times like these
I am a one way motorway
I’m the one that drives away
Then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I’m a wild light blinding bright
Burning off alone
It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again
I am a new day rising
I’m a brand new sky
To hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
Do I stay or run away
And leave it all behind?
It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again
Unbelievable that this is the song that spoke to me the most tonight...
The show was so amazing.. Dave Grohl is my hero... I am beginning to question if he is more my hero than eddie vedder after tongiht. Shit, what an amazing show.
We had lawn seats, but we didnt spend one second in the lawn. For the opening bands (The Constantines who i had heard of but never heard but were awesome, and Sloan which was a total surprise but AMAZING! becuase they are fantastic live) we moved from seats to seats in teh 400 section, gettign kicked out as the people who actually bought the seats came... And then for the foos we stood on the walkway between the 200 and 300 levels... it was awsome. Such a good view. The security guards kept telling us to move.... but we would go back the second they were gone. I STARTED A MOSHPIT IN THAT SECTION! ON SLIPPERY CONCRETE! 100 METERS AWAY FROMT HE STAGE! Possiblyt my proudest rock moment... I initiated awesomeness.
The whole show i rocked otu so much. The people around me were either frightend (cuz they were panzies) or impressed and asked me for so many high fives. Its awesome to feel that everyone loves you for who you are.... because who i am is rocking out and enjoying myself as much as possible, esspecially at a show liek the Foos.
Fantastic night. I knew and screamed along to every song but like two. My voice is dead. Yet again i am left wondering how Dave Grohl can handle doing it every night... Mine is dead after screaming at half of his intenisty for one night, whereas he has been doing it for 10 years.. thats why he is god. He played everlong accoustic and it brought a tear to my eye. Times like these dit he same becauyse i realized that it is about those moments in life when you realize why you are alive. Tonight showed me so much, my friends have showed me so much more in the past little hwile. Fuck.. im in love with life amongst other thigns right now, its really really really really really radical. I feel so fantastic....
shit i miss emilie and i wish i could see Linzi cuz all we do is talk on msn and never hang out.... Shes uber cool.
I got to see Jen again tonight. It was rockin and awesome. shes real killer and i love her.
Time to drink more whisky!
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[13 Aug 2005|03:38am] |
im drunk as fuck and i fooled around tonight. Holy shit.......
Fuck.
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